The universe is telling me something

The universe is telling me something. And if you have ever had the universe tell you anything, you would know that this is truly something else.

Once when I was 21 and somewhat sad, I stood by the sidewalk, watching vehicles go by, thinking I’ve never had it this bad before. The sun shone in a second and rain sparkled like diamonds on the pavement. And I was filled by such a spirit that I didn’t find it at all odd to find diamonds scattered on the streets. It was as though they were always everywhere to begin with. And I knew right then that it was okay to let go of the tears I was pushing back. The universe said, sparkle.

And when the universe tries to say something, it’s always a grand conspiracy. You wake from a dream you couldn’t quite remember but it stays with you while you have your first cup of coffee. It feels as though you have had that same dream before and you’ve been waking up with the same feeling. It continues to distract you a bit while you walk to your desk. You hear a particular song and find it odd that you should hear this now. This is all just foreshadowing or maybe an opportunity to figure out how you feel about what the universe is about to propose.

This goes on for some time because the universe knows it’s not easy to ask a girl to decide how she feels about this and that. And so time, the universe gives with one seemingly meaningless event after another. But if you are the type who believes (as I obviously am) that the universe slips you little post-its from time to time, you may be able to gradually decipher cleverly coded messages: a photograph that tells you that you’ve been here before and it took you a while to get back on your feet, a note that told you something you didn’t know and wouldn’t be comfortable knowing, some advice you hear yourself giving – one which you yourself badly need and a look in the eye that confirms everything.

You sit down for a long time staring at the wall, thinking, I think I know what to do. You think it’s clear but you’re not sure. No, you’re sure but you don’t feel strong enough to actually do it. Then the universe gives you the push of a lifetime. And then you are once again overcome by the same spirit as though everything now makes perfect sense. This time the universe is telling you simply that you always knew.